The Great Anjali Johannessen Asian Homecoming Countdown
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until Anjali’s comes home to Asia
i’m in i’m in i’m in i’m in i’m in i’m in i’m in i’m in
I’ve known this before. But I don’t think I realise the extent of it.
People don’t take me seriously. Ever.
love is harder to attain than a degree -rajat
This isn’t easy. I was hoping to just avoid this, simply forget that the deadline’s on 31st, passively accept that somethings are better left unknown. But I know me, and I’d hate myself to regret it later.
Did a quick check on the statutes online for the schedule.
Ha. That made this easier.
Bigger picture, nis. Know what you’ve always wanted, know that it’s okay if things changes, that it’s alright if you change.
Il faut savoir d’où l’on part et, si possible, où l’on veut arriver, même si le chemin qu’on va suivre va effectuer de nombreux détours et de multiples zigzags, et même si le point d’arrivée ne correspond pas toujours au but que l’on s’était assigné! – Hergé
I realise that for friends, it seems easier for them to pull you down to earth from your lofty ideas than to give you that extra push you need to achieving it.
Why aren’t there more friends who are equally ambitious as you are, who would dream along with you, ready to pump your hot air balloon to propel you to reach for the stars, so to speak.
Instead, people would rather you settle for second best, set your aims lower, don’t expect too much.
It’s like they’re afraid you’ll end up disappointed and they’ll be left to mop up the mess you got yourself into.
It’s as though they expect you to fail.
And then they can console themselves, remove themselves from guilt, for at least having ‘told you so’.
But I’d rather you stand by me, believe in me, invest in me. Cause when I do make it, I’d want to celebrate.
And I’d want to call you.
There is nothing quite as wonderful as money,
There is nothing quite as beautiful as cash,
Some people say it’s folly,
But I’d rather have the lolly,
With money you can make a splash.
I’m probably one of the few fools in the world who has to perpetually and consciously remind myself that it’s good to have money, that it’s okay and that I’m in need of it. Oh and that I should refuse receiving it.
For a while the whole Total and French business filled me with an excitement and joy that I haven’t seen in myself for a while. It was refreshing to be happy again. Felt free.
Then my mind wandered to the thoughts that no matter how comfy I was in Paris, I couldn’t shake off the feeling that I was like a fish out of water. And how that feeling never left even upon returning to Singapore.
I need a homing device. And wealth-awareness/wealth-lust tool.
I find that I have many friends who are very narrow-minded and naive.
And I don’t know whether I should attribute this to the years in university, of being disconnected from the greater society or a simple yet unfortunate case of ignorance.
Fools.
.. Don’t tell me I can’t.
In another country, their president presents war-veterans with purple hearts.
I think it’s inappropriate that our President to give out awards at umm.. a talent show.
Well, I suppose he’s not a Lee or a Goh or anyone important..
Because I was too proud to act like I cared when something fell in the middle of an argument and because I am too forgetful to remember to pick it up later..
I lost my specs.
I am upset.
I was going to tell you about my first day of driving but then I got into a small debate with Joel with regards the keep/repeal section 377A matter and now I am as pouty as a petulant child refusing to swallow her braised red cabbages (which is gross by the way, ugh).
kaini | says:
i know people see it as oh today we repeal 377a, then tmr the gays would get married.. but i can also turn around and say wah today we keep 377a and tmr lets not let indians buy hdb flats, cause they’re smelly
kaini | says:
we dont want our kids to have smelly neighbours right?
kaini | says:
or lets not have interracial marriages cause goodness me what will happen, it will totally erode the fabric of our society, our cultures and traditions will be diluted
Yikes! I was hoping to return from France to a nation that is a little more grown up than when I left it. But when my boyfriend changed his I/C last month, I saw that it still said Chinese on it, so I gave up. Might as well say Chinese, heterosexual, HDB-dweller, income bracket of $xxx. Because we all could do with more classifications. And why make them all a boring shade of pink right? We ought to colour code it for easier referencing. So that with one glance at my brown NRIC, the HDB can quickly assign me a flat unit on a lower floor. But let’s take out the blood type grouping from the one card that we carry around everyday, cause you know.. it’s not that important.
Equality, is it asking for too much?
Maybe I dream too much.
Well I definitely sleep a lot these days so that equals to more dreams right? And I stone a lot in the day, just stare into space, thinking of.. things. So it’s night dream and day dream! It’s like I don’t ever wake up! Whee.
Oh so back to my driving story. As you know, I’m quite contented to let someone else drive for me. I like sitting at the back at the car, observing the trees and lampposts as they roll past my window and just.. stone. I think it’s a habit built up over time, since I realise that if I don’t space out, then I’ll start reading things (signboards, ads, license plate numbers etc.) and that makes me dizzy.
So this afternoon, in between subconsciously changing gears and holding clutch pedal and checking mirrors (I’m actually a natural at this haha), I caught myself.. daydreaming at the wheel!!!
I can’t believe I was like suuuuuppperr nonchalant about the whole I’m-in-control-of-a-moving-vehicle situation. And happily oblivious to fact that turning my steering wheel would avert disaster.
It was all “Oh look there’s a pedestrian in front of me. La di da. And is that a bend I’m supposed to turn at? Okies dum dee dum” and just proceed to cruise on straight.
My instructor had to perpetually jam the E-brake and steer me away from other objects, moving or stationary and I’ll be like “oohh yaa must turn”.
LIKE WHAT THE HELL LAAAAA.
It’s just a phase I’m going through, okay?
But anyway I like the song that’s on Aston’s website.
I see you right in front of me, as close as you can get
And I pray that you won’t leave, this daydream yet
